I'm looking forward... period!
posted on Wednesday, January 21, 2009 08:46 PM
Created on Jan 20th, 2009
I started this blog by thinking 'I'm looking forward to this brighter future etc. etc.', in one part being inspired by the pleasure of being alive and conscious at a time to see Martin Luther King's dream manifesting bit by bit, and take a big leap with Pres. Obama's inauguration... but also nudged by the feeling that this stagnation in my space has got to get moving!
That fantastic song from the dancing days of my youth filters in my brain: Back to Life, Back to Reality!
But it isn't really a future built around anybody else that's propelling me on this day. It's just the feeling that I need to focus on my happiness! And where is that? Certainly, not backward!
Thus my sentiment of looking forward, head up, heart high, mind clean and pure.
All that has happened is for a reason and a really good one. I won't know just yet; I am just clear that the learnings as they relate to my body deteriorating then regenerating are significant to me and a strong reminder about the trade-off I feel we make when we get the chance to walk on this planet.
I think that the body is given as the tool to enjoy this physical life with; to manifest our truth, our faith, our belief. And so, how we treat that portal of ours is so indicative of the amount of respect we hold for our Maker, our Creator, who thought of all those details for us, so we do not have to think about what's working or not, in there.
I am blessed to be very very healthy generally, but I am remembering right now that I used to be a really sickly child and that I dearly wanted to live a healthy, unhindered life. I concentrated on building strength of my form and my mind as I grew and as an adult, I could go for sometimes years with hardly an ailment. I even consciously 'beat' asthma!
The recognition that a part of my self-love 'ritual' and my faith rests seriously in considering what I take into and keep in my body, is tremendous to me on this day.
The sense of obligation I have felt about helping people from their miseries is lifting, rapidly! To each his own, to each his own.
I disagree with self-torturing; I am opposed to disrespect of this life, of its hope and opportunities to live and serve; I am displeased with people with ingratitude, with apathy and contempt for blessings and gifts which we definitely didn't have to get. It just offends my faith! And keeping that truth in; practically attempting to hide from it, has led to my gut, the home of my expression, 'closing in' on me... toxifying, causing a risk to my longevity, seriously...
For the sake of my spirit no more immersion, no more negativity, no more cynicism, no more justifying, no more under-lying, no more disrespect of the divine... No more!
I'm onto love, or nothing at all!
I truly hope I have learned my lessons, once and for all; that my awareness is fully set this time for taking things forward. There's simply no living in dying... which is all the negative thought process can do. Kill all those beautiful possibilities in this lifetime.
So forward! On we go!!
See you there with me, hopefully.
Love to you, and all around you as well!
P.S. A dance? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qvC1ijiyv1c